Love, Love, Oh love
I am tired of restless
resplendent virtues
of better days;
I long for rain,
Her lurking gray;
sudden burst of emotion
Dripping, whipping, lashing
against delicate window panes,
Rattles like death;
Compliments me.
I do not speak of dying,
I am as immortal
as she.
I breathe and speak
in tiny rhymes and prayers
for daylight to wane,
I wish to recoil; tired
of the dizzy spells
from arched spines;
A memory burns, and burns
Striking matches
across my dry lips.
I shall not untie knots,
nor watch them burn.
So, I wish for rain
to be the healer
I have been looking for.
I am not weak or vague
Rather a lazy fool
Who chooses to ignore
my ability of procession,
Disrespecting the cemented
Mentality of heart ache.
I am not a pretender,
But a careless hypocrite
Who chose to withdraw
from self preservation;
I play with fire.
But for today I ask the rain
To come with night;
deliberate lies,
That embers will cool.
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Welcomed Muse; Goodbye |
For years
You were my muse- love
Now freed from you
My thoughts no longer
waves crashing against bodies.
My muse may be loneliness.
I’ve yet to decide,
which letters I shall burn
Since I’ve left your wake.
Awake from a dream
where you came to me
and confessed mistakes-
Wishful folly-
but I wouldn’t say a fool.
Rather a struck string
snapped in half and replaced
Echoing emotions
for humanity to interpret.
I, a fragile sinner
Lethargy above repentance,
seek not a god,
for salvation was yesterday’s,
and today has yet to be seen.
You- love
Just a fleck on wrist,
a scar I learned to ignore.
Shall I treat loneliness the same?
Disinfect by detachment,
or shall I nourish it,
like a bird with broken wings?
Is it wise to hold affliction
and romanticized hope?
Letters never revealed
ink smudged
beneath eyelashes.
Strange strangulation
from naive madness,
reserved for love.
But I wouldn’t say fool-
But a casualty of liaisons.
Four harvests of rue,
for me to retire,
welcoming exhaustion.
A moratorium
from heated rue blisters,
but cured sore eyes.
Now two harvests
have come and gone
A disappearance of satisfaction.
My forlorn friend
asking me which letters
shall I burn;
Which ones will remain
what letters
shall I write to a sorry friend.
I did not kneel
nor bring flowers
to your wake.
I did not bring condolences
nor faith.
But only my secret letters
that asked for forgiveness;
letters for a lost muse.
Immortality only beauty
That withstands time,
and perhaps I have
found a new muse.
I have preyed upon it,
with sore eyes and a dull mind,
But now a stronger huntress
I stab at infinite time,
Claiming myself not a victim
Nor a fool-
But a survivor of mortality.
And burn no letters